Hating yourself doesn’t go away in a day.
I’m now pretty sure that’s my issue.. After all the times I’ve fucked up, after everything I’ve done, I think I hate myself. I don’t think anyone understands the guilt that I feel walking around everyday. I push people away because I think they’ll be better off without me. I fuck everything up.
Another relationship I’ll probably fuck up..
I need to figure out how to be a good person again. My mind is trashed..
i can’t explain..
1. I love the guys that treat me like shit.
2. I can’t tell anyone i love them anymore without feeling like im going to throw up.
3. If anyones a good friend to me and tries to make me feel better i’ll probably just act like i bitch cause i can’t handle that.
4. I asked my best friend to not talk to me anymore.
5. I can never just relax.
6. I feel like nobody ever wants me around, im too negative, i can’t help it though.
im working on it..
7. Im self-centered, and i expect people to like me.. i don’t know..
8. I can’t decide if im too lazy to try and keep conversation or i just have no personality.
9. I let people use me.
10. I don’t know how to fix any of this.
